“I imagine that the goddess of Love has come down from Olympus to visit a
mortal. So as not to die of cold in this modern world of ours, she
wraps her sublime body in great heavy furs and warms her feet on the
prostrate body of her lover. I imagine the favorite of this beautiful
despot, who is whipped when his mistress grows tired of kissing him, and
whose love only grows more intense the more he is trampled underfoot."
-Leopold von Sacher-Masoch
Look out for amazing pictures of me in Von Gutenberg issue 7... click the teaser pic below to check out their site and find out where you can buy the issue.
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Something has been bothering me for a while, but it was hard for me to put into words. I'm
not the best at communication, my brain has a tendency to run much
faster than my mouth does, but I feel like this is something I need to
try to express because it it honestly hurts me on such a deep level.
read and hear so much from subs/slaves/fetishists/whatever who are just
downright jaded. Its so upsetting reading from jaded subs, almost as
much as it is to read from jaded dommes. They don't seem to understand
that for some of us, this is real.
I take great care to keep
good company, to select those who serve me in our session based on our
compatibility, based on whether it will be a mutually fulfilling
experience. Because its my session too. I love sessioning... I love
anticipating a certain slave's visit, I love planning, and I love
playing; I love the high of the session and the happy calm after. Its
downright insulting for them to insinuate I would even consider a
session that I don't enjoy... just the thought cheapens the whole
experience for me, and it makes me sad to think that something or
someone has led this man to be so jaded.
I've expressed this to other Mistresses, sometimes called "delusional", but that's how I feel. Years
ago I saw what happens when a Mistress spends a long career keeping
less than great company... the contempt, the joylessness. I never want to be that. I always want to be this happy. I've
been lucky enough in recent years to be surrounded by amazing,
like-minded people: slaves who know the joy of serving and Mistresses
take great joy in being served.
Ok, I'm done now. There's about a 70% chance that came out the way I meant it to. For the other 30%, have fun nitpicking.
Between sessions and filming, I haven't had much time to update my site and photos, because I'm a control freak who insists on doing it all myself. But rest assured that there are good things coming.
In the past few weeks I've arrived at a Zen-like level of understanding of both myself and my fetishes.
So all I can say is, damn it feels good to be a gangsta...
Visual fodder to make up for the lack of "sexy" in this post...